I’am penning out the thoughts what came to my mind at the age of 30 with a loss
in life which cannot be filled – “My Deep Love”. Two of us in grief Harshika my
3.5 years daughter and me. I am writing a piece of advice to you my friends.
As I was advised by the learned, I look into her wet eyes and small little waste
in my hand, I told her Harshika Papa is for you and you are for papa……………. &
then the funeral continues.
Last night when my caring friends, they were u all who came home, thoughts
poured in, What is life? We are running behind Goals…materialistic goals. I have
achieved this so next list to achieve is already ready and much more challenging
than previous one –But what if there is tomorrow?
I really wish the golden period spent with Manisha, if it repeats itself I would do
the following to make it diamond period. I would have gone for exclusive dinners
with her more often rather than big groups. I would have laughed more at silly
blunders we did together rather than covering it up. After petty fights I would
not morn for that ½ hour with her. I would have looked into her eyes everyday
& told her that she was my inspiration & strength rather than keeping it in my
mind and not telling it every day to her. I would have gone for the vacation to
do list prepared together rather than waiting for my project to complete before
realizing the next is already in hand. Tell her everyday morning what I felt “ I
love you & you are looking so pretty rather than telling it on occasions.
In the whole rat race of life for Money, Commitments, Fame we tend to ignore
these little things not knowing it can be the last day of our life.
As u guys are more or less of my age try making it a routine rather than thinking
like us, At 40 I shall retire, live on the beach and travel far and wide. Now at 30 I’
am without her. Life will be normal & time will yield us with friend’s like you all.
But my thoughts around will wonder Wish I lived every day as the last day and
it will be in my heart till it beats last.
Loved u most and will love u more
Missing u deeply
Manisha
Dear Naveen,
ReplyDeletewe all will truly miss the silent ,calm ,ever smiling presence of manisha...
believe it or not from the moment manisha has departed ,i also have had the same thoughts coming to me again and again...
we all have set wrong goals \ priorities in our life ...
happiness of near and dear ones is the only goal we should run after..
the only achievement in life u should be proud abt is the amount of happiness u are able to give to others...
my love for namitha has only become stronger after this and i'm committed to spending more quality time with her...
my good wishes to u my friend,may god give u all strength and solace to tackle this very challenging period of your life...
we are all there for u always...
VEDANT.
Hats off to u my dear friend, I salute u for the courage and strength u have shown... Purvi n myself are Deeply touched by ur blog, shall always follow ur advice. "U" will be the source of inspiration for the rest of our life.
ReplyDeleteMay GOD bless u both.
Sunny and Purvi.
Naveen,
ReplyDeleteThough it's actually happened to u, but each one of us is soo deeply affected by this terrible mishap....jus wish wish n wish it was a nightmare...every bit of us wants to run away from this heartbreaking ,petrifying reality.
Fond memories of Manisha is incessantly haunting us, something soo unfair couldnt have been in store for this extremely composed,calm,simply delightful person.
Yes,life is short,and we have to get to terms with it.value the quality time with our loved ones to refrain from gruesome regrets later.
Please one and all, love the people who love and care for u, as life can get cruel to never give u a second chance.
Naveen, Harshika......any amount of verbal/oral inspiration may not be able to share even a 1/zillionth of the grief your family is going through..as any consolation is 'no consolation' for loss of life..but today just want to let u know that we all stand together as a pillar of strength,support,shoulder at all times hitherto. please consider all of us as close to u,today and always...forever..
God Bless,
Punam Jain
Naveen,
ReplyDeleteNo soul was untouched by the tragedy you went through. We all know you & your family are going through your toughest times. No words can ease the pain in your hearts.
But, I would still ask you to trust in the process of life, have faith in God. If God gives us life changing tragedy, He also gives us strength to come out stronger.
Manish'a immortal soul would never go far from the canvas of our thoughts. Let her become your strength, not weakness. Let the warmth of her inspiration be the guiding force of your life.
Take care,
Babita