I’am penning out the thoughts what came to my mind at the age of 30 with a loss
in life which cannot be filled – “My Deep Love”. Two of us in grief Harshika my
3.5 years daughter and me. I am writing a piece of advice to you my friends.
As I was advised by the learned, I look into her wet eyes and small little waste
in my hand, I told her Harshika Papa is for you and you are for papa……………. &
then the funeral continues.
Last night when my caring friends, they were u all who came home, thoughts
poured in, What is life? We are running behind Goals…materialistic goals. I have
achieved this so next list to achieve is already ready and much more challenging
than previous one –But what if there is tomorrow?
I really wish the golden period spent with Manisha, if it repeats itself I would do
the following to make it diamond period. I would have gone for exclusive dinners
with her more often rather than big groups. I would have laughed more at silly
blunders we did together rather than covering it up. After petty fights I would
not morn for that ½ hour with her. I would have looked into her eyes everyday
& told her that she was my inspiration & strength rather than keeping it in my
mind and not telling it every day to her. I would have gone for the vacation to
do list prepared together rather than waiting for my project to complete before
realizing the next is already in hand. Tell her everyday morning what I felt “ I
love you & you are looking so pretty rather than telling it on occasions.
In the whole rat race of life for Money, Commitments, Fame we tend to ignore
these little things not knowing it can be the last day of our life.
As u guys are more or less of my age try making it a routine rather than thinking
like us, At 40 I shall retire, live on the beach and travel far and wide. Now at 30 I’
am without her. Life will be normal & time will yield us with friend’s like you all.
But my thoughts around will wonder Wish I lived every day as the last day and
it will be in my heart till it beats last.
Loved u most and will love u more
Missing u deeply
Manisha
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